What’s with all the homesickness?! I caught the
homesick-bug coming down off of my high-on-life-emotions from spending a
fantastic week with my grandparents, Bobba and Papa, on vacation. Thankfully,
with a little TLC on skype, via phone call, and my host fam, I felt much better
once I was back home in Madrid.
It’s nice see things from the other side—finally I know
what it’s like to be in the group of those who wish to extend their visa, rather
than those who never wish to re-live the difficult memories. Such a blessing,
compared to my experience in Argentina. I am so thankful to have a host family
who have accepted me wholeheartedly, and treat me as their own. And that my
host brother, Abel (age 10) is coming home with me this summer, makes me feel
even more nurtured. And that my grandparents spent the night at my house for
several days in a row, and got to know my host parents and host siblings, makes
me thoroughly excited and hopeful that Abel will feel at home in my house too,
as well as Paula, who will be visiting when she comes to pick up Abel at the
end of July.
It’s nice to feel at home in Madrid, instead of a guest.
My belongings are in drawers. My laundry is no exception. I can laugh or cry
with my family, I can eat what I want, and I am not judged for my appearance.
But, it makes me feel like a hypocrite, because I can’t
sympathize with the homesick-bug that is going around now, although I can totally
empathize with what my friends are going through. I pray that their hearts
would be contented. I know what it’s like to be down in the dumps, missing the
comforts of home, feeling like no one understands, and like there’s no way out.
Ajo y Agua. Here’s the thing: it’s happening for a reason, and you will be a
better person for going through it. That’s what I learned in Argentina.
But all this negative energy is depressing! Here’s what’s
going on with some people I know:
L—had to change host families recently, due to
extenuating circumstances. Says that the change was necessary, but that the
return-date can’t come fast enough.
M—Been counting down the days since (s)he arrived, due to
a bad host family that (s)he couldn’t change. Hm, sounds oddly like Argentina…
R—Lost a close friend recently, and is now feeling miserable.
(S)He wants to go home, to forget about it. I hate that (s)he is so upset.
M—is leaving early for family obligations. I can
understand that, but I’m sorry that (s)he doesn’t get to finish the semester.
K—also had family come to visit recently, and that,
ever since then, (s)he can’t wait to be back with them in the US. Says that the
host family situation is becoming unbearable.
B—posted a status that said “Can’t wait to go home.” Makes
me sad, because I thought everything was going smoothly.
Besides all of that Spain-business, it does make me
terribly sad to think that countless friends of mine are graduating from Elon
in about two weeks, and that I won’t even be there to hug them, in person. I
don’t even know if I’ll ever see them again.
But, really: What is “home,” anyway? Home is where the
heart is. My heart is at home. Love, ~Taylor